My brand New Book is Out!!


I wrote my first book guys and it is entitled The Greater You, it is a motivational/inspirational poetry book,consists of 34 poems I am so elated to have it out in this season and it couldn’t be done without the help of my God and savior Jesus Christ,I am grateful for the support,follows,comments and likes you guys had a huge part in motivating me to pursue my dream of becoming a writer,thanks to you guys Love you all.

Written by

Laurna Guiste


All or nothing

All or nothing

I sat near the window pane, when the much needed breeze kissed across my face and I closed my eyes as my heart ached. I wished he had joined me for lunch but he was long gone now with nothing but a memory. I read and re-read the text messages he sent me a few hours ago stating all the reasons why we shouldn’t be together, and I digested every word and syllable causing my muscles to feel sore and my spirit heavy. In the heat of the moment I replied with such anger and hurt telling him that I didn’t want him either and how we were better off with other lovers. I knew I was piercing my own heart but what else could I say, I had always played victim in my past relationships begging for a man to stay with me feeling far  worst when he still left, so this time I decided I would be strong or at least pretend to be. God knew I felt my weakest, blaming myself for things not working out; after all this was my fourth lover.

Darnel was his name, tall, dark and handsome with a six pack that made me shiver whenever I thought about it. A few days ago we made love and I guess he already knew it was our last time because he made me climax all over the bedroom walls, floor and bathroom. He was a deacon at his church, the youngest actually 26 years old, was the most charming and  had women at the church always trying to get with him but none were successful. He prided himself on being a “godly, strong man” who exercised self control but all that talk were babbles when it came to me. My name is Charlene Jones, Chief Executive Manager at Excites Boutique, a 5’7, fair skinned beauty who’s an active member and PRO of the church’s Women Ministry. I knew our secret lifestyles were not pleasing to God but publicly we were the ideal christains, prayed, fasted danced, shout about and even spoke in tongues. We were both saved and wanted to honestly live a holy and pleasing life before God but like everyone else we had our weaknesses.

Darnel and I were acquaintances for a long time and he never showed no interest in me since I always went from relationship to relationship, he was my type but I always thought he was way too serious and always assumed he had a girlfriend.  It happened at one of our Sunday evening services that  he volunteered to drive me home since my car battery died, it was an interesting drive  filled with compliments and he finally conveyed his interest in me. I was flattered but my guard was still up from my past relationship so I refused to give him my number. He didn’t give up, every Sunday after service he met up with me to talk about the word and other spiritual topics, I was impressed and slowly my guard started coming down, so I gave him my number one afternoon. He acted like the happiest guy alive and he called me every night to talk about how my day was, my goals dreams and what my ideas and thoughts of marriage were. We got to know each other so deeply, he made it easy to open up and tell him deep details about myself, and the more we spoke about our expectations in marriage the more I pictured him as my husband. We were close for about three months and we had never gone out on a date, every time I brought it up he told me he was busy but we spoke every night so our connection still grew. When the fifth month came I started to feel we should make it official since I felt like I was his girlfriend, we spoke about everything referred to each other as “us” and “we” and we spoke of our future together and we always hung out after church but no one saw us as a couple just good friends but it felt like so much more to me.  So after bugging him so much about it he decided that we should go on a weekend camping trip together, knowing that I adore the outdoors and always wanted to go on a road trip I literally jumped on him at the idea. I packed my bag and we left the Saturday afternoon to the next town it was a 9 hour drive filled with laughter, fun, excitement, snacks and we had our first kiss.

We stopped at a viewing point facing the ocean and the sun was setting leaning against the car’s boot and he just unexpectingly captured my half open lips. It was such a magical moment since I liked him so much I felt tingly all over and I kissed him back with much passion and before long we were devouring each other’s mouth. We kissed every time after that, he said he liked my lips and my lips liked his and they were always joining. That night we slept at a cheap hotel on separate beds and I knew he wanted to make love but at that time I was terrified of getting pregnant and God wouldn’t be pleased I said, at that moment I was satisfied with just a deep kiss. He agreed to the same thing and so we didn’t have sex, the rest of the trip went by so fast. We were soon back home and before we said our good byes he kissed me and told me he loved me I smiled and told him I loved him too. It was six months and our talks over the phone continued this time it was filled with dirty talks,sexting,nude pictures  and ended with I love you’s, I felt  so in love and since we still spoke about one day getting married I let all my guard down and started masturbating while talking to him. Our talks about the word, praying and fasting ceased and more and more we lusted after each other. There were moments I would try to tell him we were doing something wrong but he told me if I wanted to be his girlfriend I would give all myself to him. I didn’t want to lose his love so I gave in.

He convinced me for hanging out at his home one afternoon, I would bring pop corn and we would watch Netflix, perfect time to cuddle I thought since we hadn’t hang since the trip. So I went over and we sat on the couch and watched about two movies when we started making out, everything in me wanted  to make love since we spoke about it every night ,I had seen pictures of his naked body and wanted to see it in person. He didn’t hesitate to strip me naked and did everything to me he spoke of over the phone, we were in love and nothing didn’t stop us from pleasuring each other, it was amazing. Afterwards we cuddled and it felt great, I didn’t feel guilty because he loved me and I was his girlfriend God would understand.

He made our relationship official the next day and every girl at church was shocked and many were envious, they wondered how I managed to get Darnel to commit since he was known for being picky I just shrugged and told them God had His way.

For the next couple of months I felt like wonder woman, dating the hottest guy at church, being the number one Boutique in the area and rumors were spreading that Darnel was planning to propose. We had been together for almost a year and I couldn’t picture being with anyone else.  We spoke of having children and Darnel often teased me of how I’d look once pregnant. Life was amazing; God had been good to me, though Darnel and I continued to have sex regularly, and many of the church’s members wanted to know if we did but we reminded them it weren’t their business.

We planned to move in together but the pastor was against it, stating he didn’t want any of his deacons shacking up, Darnel was upset but he didn’t want to go up against the pastor, so he started sneaking into my apartment on weekends. Those were wonderful moments but our relationship stated to feel grimy and based on nothing substantial. Moreover the people at the church started to observe changes in our behavior, and our ministries started to suffer because of our double life style.  I had myself convinced  that Darnel’s and I  love could pull through anything and as soon as we got married we would move out of that small town and pursue ministry in a better church. A few weeks went by and I didn’t hear from Darnel as much, he became super busy and I got convinced that he was seeing someone else, he told me he wasn’t but I just couldn’t make sense of his distance. Church folks started accusing us of fornicating and went as far as saying I was pregnant and Darnel didn’t want the child. I heard snickers and whispers whenever we spoke at the podium, no one seemed interested in what we had to say, some called us hypocrites and one sister told me to live the women group and being so upset that day I did and I never went back to that church.

Darnel came over one night and met me crying curled up in bed, he asked me what was wrong and I told him what happened, in the end he told me he had been feeling low and how he felt like God had given up on him, he said we should fix our lives, but I told him I loved him and we were not doing anything wrong, one thing led to another and we made love. The next morning when I rose he was gone; I tried calling and texting him but no answer. I was confused more than ever and I felt like I was going crazy if Darnel had left me, days went by and this morning he sent me the lengthy text.

I began to feel lower than dirt when I realized that I had given up my body to a man who didn’t love me but  used me to satisfy his lust, I felt betrayed, manipulated and to make it worst I felt like I deserved it, I felt like God was punishing me for disobeying His word. I was heartbroken, alone and depressed how was I to come out of this position when I had no one to turn to.

Written by

Laurna Guiste

This story or one similar is one of many women, women who have suffered hurt due to sleeping with a man who didn’t love them, wasn’t married or committed to them. It is a painful tale but a mistake made too often without thinking of the consequences. I’m not going to state details about how to love any man except how to love one man so deeply that we don’t fall into similar traps and that man is Jesus. Charlene could have saved herself the heart ache and depression if she had firstly honored God in her relationship and her body. Our bodies are the temple of the Holy Ghost and we are bought with a price, therefore we should glorify God in our bodies and in our spirit which are God’s, failure to do so will have consequences. However no man is perfect and we do err, God is faithful and just to forgive our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. When we feel alone and there is no one to turn to, God is indeed there and waiting to listen to our heart content and to heal us from our hurts. God loves us even when we don’t love or want Him.

“Free “

“Free ”
Was Bound To That Thing
Which Enslaved Me
Chained In Pain
Had Me In Captivity
Being Inticed By
Lust Of My Flesh
It Felt Good
All I Desired was Pleasurable
Doing It Over And Over Again
This Thing Called Sin
Deep Down Within
I knew It was Wrong
But Kept On Singing
The Same Old Song
Suddenly I Heard
A Small Still Voice
Saying To Me
Repent Turn Away
From Your Iniquity
So I Confessed
All My Mess
Then He Touched
Me O He Started The Operation
Cleansing And Washing
Me In His Blood
Behold Old Has Become
Brand New
Filled By His Spirit
Forever Will I Be
His Child

Written by

Tessa Titre


Floetry – Flowing In Poetry *

” Blessed” : Am too Blessed to be stressed / In Christ I found my Rest / This Life am living aint no contest of Success / It is not about being better than everyone else / Am not perfect / But was chosen by the Elect / Jesus Himself / Who bled for my sins / He sees a reflection of God in me / Wonderfully and Fearfully made /In His image/Am Blessed / Highly Favored / Am so Honored / To Be part Of His kingdom / His Word is wisdom / It makes me strong / To Him I sing / A new song / Unconditional Love / Comes from above / This is why I Am BLESSED !!!

Written by Unique Angel ( Tessa )

Gold heart

Gold heart; its the synonym for this prize I call My First Love. Won, was a race of feelings for someone who was truly sent from above. She’s the best fielder on this cricket pitch of life the way she caught my attention. The kind to grow with u from minimum wage to the days of pension. You retire to her arms at night knowing that ur lifelong career was loving her. Laying there remembering the day ur heart sent an application in for her to be your love’s employer. Stepped up and addressed you like that life changing letter. The “whats ur name”, “how are u” and a joke for the ice breaker. A convo that produced 7 digits & what promised to be fun. All I wanted tho was to minus 6 out of those 7 digits just so she’d be my number 1. As time went by, we got closer and eventually boarded this vessel of emotions. A relation-ship that sailed its way round these love filled oceans. Cabin fever: a burning desire and warmth shared while I made love to my chick. We’ve made it thru the cold & the iceberg that tried sink our titanic. The ups and downs, downs and ups could make taking love’s elevator ride quite queasy. Life’s no slut, it ain’t gonna be that easy. With God first , even if she left everything would be all right. But no one wants to sleep in their bed all lonely at night. I’ve seen it all cuz the eyes are the window to the soul and she pushed the curtain aside so I could have a view. Ever since I’ve enjoyed watching the bright mornings under the fall of dew. I’ve lust and I’ve loved, but loving her I’ve not yet lost. So back to the present as I held her tighter and kissed her lips, and the moral of it all: there isn’t a price tag out there that could show how much My First Love costs.

Written by

Durkel Dalrymple

I’m imperfect, I’m imperfect(x 2)

I’m imperfect, I’m imperfect

Here comes this Imperfect man into my life trying to wife me,

I want him to lead me because I’m blind, but he also can’t see.

I’m trying to walk straight but he doesn’t seem to help me,

God help this man cause his weakness is my weakness, we both need to be set free,

Cause I’m imperfect, I’m imperfect

He loves God, We love God, we share God, we both need God,

He needs me to be strong, I need him to be right and not just go along, correct my wrongs I need him to be strong.

We both here singing these church songs but we’re imperfect,

Not really loving each other’s perfect imperfections, cause we’re far from it,

We need deliverance from it, both need to get to it, rise to it,

Cause we’re both broken, looking for pieces of Him in each other,

Falling short ,finding fault in the other, we can’t be whole, if we are just glimpses of what perfect suppose to be, cause we are both struggling with insecurities,

We need to be transformed and cleansed from our sins

And strive to be all He made us to be, yet imperfect may he see Christ in me, in us,

As we decrease and cry upon our knees, we let go of our selves and die to the flesh and become one, and in oneness flow in perfect  love,and  let this love that we share yet being imperfect give flame to our efforts to spark the change that we both need to grow.

Written by Laurna Guiste

Trust that God knows best

When God keeps something from you, better believe He has good reason. The word says no good thing will He withhold from them who walk uprightly, so if something is not good for you or will cause harm to you better believe your loving father will not give it to you. I use to get mad at God when a guy I was interested in would out of nowhere lose interest in me, I would cry, question God and actually think something was wrong with me. Everything seemed to be going fine and then they would just stop talking to me, so several times in my pursuit for happiness I would start pursuing this guys, which is wrong true love is never chased down by a good woman,anyways I would say almost anything to start up a conversation and get the ball rolling again, only to left looking desperate and rejected. Those moments hurt, and in that season I couldn’t see what God was trying to tell me or show me about these guys because I only saw the good part and the parts that felt good, and I was emotional and my vision got clouded and I felt like I was the problem and not these guys.

That was a result of not knowing myself, my worth and not knowing what I really wanted so I settled for anything. Moreover I was operating in the flesh and not spending quality time with God and allowing Him to speak to me, because if I only listened and viewed these guys based on the word of God I would quickly realize I was making a mistake and that I deserved so much better.

So lesson learnt, I read God’s word,books,blogs,posts  started following some genuine women of God and learnt what it is all about to be a woman of God and what to look for in a mate. That was where I realized why those relationships didn’t work out; they were not tied to my destiny. If anything, getting involved with these men would not help me fulfill my God given purpose. These men had their own plans and agenda and being their wife means I have to be a supporter and follower of their vision and if they are not led by God then how on earth are they going to lead me in the right way to fulfill God’s plan.

So if you are child of God, and God’s got His hand on your life better believe He is not going to yoke you with any and anybody. I realize the higher the call the longer the wait or the more he sharpens your character. So trust God that He is going to meet all of your needs and that He has not forgotten you, He knows what is best for you so wait on Him.

Written by

Laurna Guiste

Letting go..

Letting  go..

I had a dream recently where I thought I was holding unto a small, harmless beetle, I felt like the beetle wanted to flee from my grasp but I still held unto it, then after a while the animal peered through my fingers and I noticed it was actually a cockroach I was holding, in disgust I shook it off.

Many of us might be like me in that dream holding onto something or someone that we feel is harmless to us and our spiritual or overall well being, but that person or thing is actually harmful to us and isn’t good for us and we need to LET IT GO!!

We need to let go of toxic relationships and things that weigh us down and enjoy the abundant life that God has given us. Life is too short to be sitting around in self pity and allowing everyone to use us except God. God didn’t place us on this earth to just occupy space and sit pretty, we are born and created for a unique purpose and distractions from toxic connections are just going to abort the plan God has for us.

You need to do some spring cleaning, firstly get rid of the mess in your cupboards that attract the cockroaches, take stock of your life, get in touch with who God has made you and the life He has made for you, not everyone is tied to your destiny so take note of who is on your team and who isn’t. Get right with God and allow Him to purify your heart and mind. Remember you attract who you are and not what you want, so in order to live a holy and fulfilled life be holy, be furfilled, love yourself to walk away from anything that no longer makes you happy and does not benefit you spiritually. You deserve to be happy!

Written by

Laurna Guiste

Who am I?

Who am I? she asked as she stared blankly at the mirror,her life was difficult at the moment,she couldn’t understand why she was facing so much hardships and frustration. Then she laid her hand on her heart and she closed her eyes and as if she could hear a small voice whisper ” I have chosen you,you are my beloved,and the plan I have for your life is not an ordinary one,that is why it requires trials to make you stronger,testings to make you wiser,bolder,to elevate your faith and motives. I am taking you through the fire so you can be made purer and be able to help others and lead by example. Your testings are meant for testimonies. Trust that it will all make sense one day. She smiled at her teary reflection,she was being molded for something greater than herself.

Written by
Laurna Guiste


HAPPY NEW YEAR TO all my followers on WordPress!
I am so elated and honored to have reached such a huge milestone of 1000 follows.God bless and I look forward to the continuous support,likes and comments.I also look forward to following your awesome writings and journeys which all are a blessing and inspiration to me in some way.May this year be your greatest year ever! Above all put God first and everything else shall be added!I love you guys!:)

Laurna Guiste