Fight for your true identity

The uncertainties of self discovery dissipates with age,time forces its impression of who you’ve settled to be and what society expects you to be.It is you who has to push against the mold,break through the barriers of expectations and be who you desire to be.It is a painful and hard experience to be free from the norm of society and as years pass by it becomes harder. But the moment you step out even if by baby steps you begin to accomplish things no other man would,because you dared to try,you dared to change and be different and not settle.
Written by Laurna Guiste


No-Meat November Challenge continues

So,it’s the second week into my No-meat November Challenge and it  continues to be a royal pain in the butt,it is nothing short of challenging,not only is it more expensive to live a healthier lifestyle, you will also find as a result fewer people are actually encouraging you not to lose weight ,especially when they do not understand why you are on your journey and you have to keep reminding yourself why you starting your journey in the first place.

“Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough.” Og Mandino

So for the second week I had soy chucks in coconut and curry gravy with spinach and vegetable rice that was delicious, I made oats one particular day and it was OK, had lots of vegetable rice and whole wheat crackers and banana smoothies for snack. My Vigorous exercises continued and I’m glad to announce I lost 6 lbs I wished it were ten(10) but it is something.


I know there is lots more work to do, I definitely have to push harder, with only two more weeks and a few days remaining in November  I want to lose more and  if not reach get real close to my target of 140lbs. For with God nothing shall be impossible, I will attain my goals.

The Saturday I did some running on the field near where I live along with some squats and sit ups,was painful but worth it. This journey continues with me pushing harder and resisting more each week. This journey testes me daily and helps me to exercise self control, saying no to yummy meats have been so darn hard. I must admit I did eat meat again but there were two pieces and I only ate one so my resistance is increasing.The journey continues.

Written by

Laurna Guiste

First week in my No-November Challenge.

My No -November Challenge has started and I said I would be blogging about it so here goes…

My No-November/No meat challenge started, actually a little earlier than November, I  started on the 31st of October. Woke up for work that day filled of ambition and excitement,a smile on my face as I marched to the kitchen to prepare my meal for the day. I decided to have a lettuce,cucumber and tomato salad with two boiled eggs for  my protein for lunch and a cup of mint tea for breakfast.. I made a kail and banana smoothie with an apple and a couple peanuts for my snack.


14971995_10209343751704897_725413821_n(Kail and Banana smoothie)

I was at work and my co-workers who knew of the challenge shook their head at my excitement,one told me she is keeping me under close observation as she is monitoring my progress.I reminded her of my determination and how I was going to keep at it and not give up,with naysayers now i had to prove them wrong.So lunch came and my excitement simmered down when i honestly felt like a caterpillar eating bitter leaves,my lunch wasn’t as yummy to my taste buds as i highly anticipated,  i knew it would need some getting used to. When i got home that evening i in cooperated  some intense work outs I searched for on YouTube ,which was so intense that i  burnt out in no time lol I ended the night with some  corn meal for dinner.

On November 1st,  the Tuesday the second day into my challenge , my inner thighs were sore from the previous work out. For lunch I made vegetable rice with boiled egg and whole wheat bread with peanut butter and banana  with green tea for breakfast and I made banana,kail,spinach,oats and flax seed smoothie which was enjoyed very much since I am  a huge lover of banana,it adds creaminess and a sweet taste.


When i came home that evening i enrolled in some more vigorous exercises this time working my abs,arms,butt and thighs.I felt less tired afterwards as my body began getting used to it.

The third day into my challenge i had Raisin bran for breakfast with carrot and cucumber  salad and whole wheat bread which i enjoyed very much with a cup of locally made cocoa tea which I indulged in since it was the creole season in my country.


The Thursday rolled in and my usual fast food cravings kicked in,I took the scent of fried chicken and my body reacted like a vampire taking the scent of blood,i told my co-worker put the chicken away the scent was offending me,raising my meat loving beast,he quickly hid it from me.I pushed off the thoughts of fried chicken that taunted me and tried concentrating on the spinach and cucumber and tomato sandwich ,apple and yogurt  i had for lunch.


When i got home I felt rather tired and my determination honestly felt low,i enrolled in just sit ups and squats that night.

Friday came in (TGIF) and it was a public holiday in my country,however I had to work so  i decided just to have a cucumber and tomato sandwich with an apple and peanuts for my snack. Whole week I had successfully avoided meat and though my weight looked the same with me wanting immediate results I felt better inside. My body was awakening to a better,healthier me that could probably become a lifestyle,a good habit.

However , on my way home from work I took the sweet,aroma of fried chicken,brown at the crust scent clouded my mind,i tried to resist but i rationalized the situation and gave in to my weakness,   i rushed to the the snackette and hoped the passing little girl didn’t notice the battle i was having with myself. I asked for fried chicken and luckily they didn’t have any more ,though my taste buds were mad I thank God He intervened.

When i made it to the town though, Festivities were preparing to flood the town so vendors were lined up by the roadside selling barbecue chicken and hot dogs.With hunger kicking in I decided to buy a hot dog,it tasted good but it felt so wrong. I honestly felt guilty afterwards and like i betrayed myself,to add salt to injury when i got home i was still famished i ended up eating meat from the pot!Yes you may be shaking your head but i did. This just proves how challenging this is for me and for anyone out there who is battling a bad habit or trying to alter a negative lifestyle this is obviously difficult and results are not going to happen over night.My story is not one about perfection ,and how i mastered this so quickly, I failed because I  am human ,still weak and i have a long way to go, and i definitely need to be more disciplined.

So,that was my first week into the No November  -no meat challenge ,triumphs were actually making it four days without meat and actually maintain vigorous exercises every night after work and snacking on only healthy snacks,defeats were eating meat today.

I look forward to better days, me becoming even more intense and disciplined in my eating habits,for the upcoming week I want to eat mainly whole grains and absolutely no meats whatsoever. Keep yourself motivated and let’s continue this journey of a better us together. Look out for my next blog of my  progress  next week Friday God spear, Love you and do have a blessed weekend.

Written by

Laurna Guiste


The human Cage

We were bound by our inhibited passions,connected by an invisible chain that made us indebted to each other. I didn’t love me,he didn’t love me,we didn’t love each other so we became slaves to our own masters called lust.Our love was tarnished by broken promises and we butchered each others trust and we hung limply, hoping for better,hoping for a change that would never come unless we allowed God to intervene.

“We often take demons as friends, playing around the bend,burning torches at night without fright because they wear amicable masks,but if we could only see what’s beneath we’d have a heart attack.”



God is merciful and just and will often seek to set his people free,but to those who’ve gone too far,its with them I plea. For self destruction can be one with no remedy,far worst when you delve in self pity and you become lost in the enemy’s web,my prayer is that you find your way back to where your conscience spoke and you obeyed. I wish you   didn’t ignore the cautions,the warnings before the storms and you took heed. I wish you didn’t serve God based on how it feels. Instead you sought to slay these warlocks on your own when you meddle with their toys! Darkness cannot win darkness,it is a losing battle,a kingdom divided against itself cannot stand. This is one to be fought by angels by God and not a mare man. When you lay up late fighting a losing battle,that depress your soul ,you have no warmth,your’e alone and cold, there is one waiting for to reach out to Him to make you whole.

One who can ease your pain and no matter how far you’ve gone,God is able to clean you,deliver you and set you free.

Written by

Laurna Guiste