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Saturday Runnings

Today I felt rather famish and visited the fast food place on my way to the store, to find out the door was closed, I was rather disappointed, it was almost 9:30am and the doors were still closed? I couldn’t believe it; however I quickly walked away before passing pedestrians noticed me forcing to open an obviously shut door. I backed away slowly, and flew up the flight of steps where two men sat before being shooed off by passing officers.
My stomach growled and as I cashed my necessities I asked the cashier what time the junk store opened she told me she wasn’t sure. On my way back I checked again and luckily or rather unluckily it was opened this time , went in and ordered my two piece combo, original and mountain dew coated with friendly customer service. After I sipped my drink I stepped out and was blasted my pulsating rhythms taking over the town bringing my attention to the local market at the other side of the road. I decided to cross the busy street beneath the scorching sun with sweat slithering down my face as I pulled out my camera.

 

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Playing tourist, I began snapping photos of buyers purchasing their oranges, carrots, bananas and fruits, surrounded by madras drapery, amplified by local folklore music I felt the festive activities amplified, the vibe pulled me in as I wanted to be part of the action.
Engulfed by local produce and voices of my native tongue, the Creole season was taking off with lively spirits, giving me a sense of urgency for the week ahead.
Written by
Laurna Guiste

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Farewell Brother.

Please play video as you read,was one of his favorite songs.

After a while the pain and I became as one,walking through crevices that were sometimes roads,sigh my brother would have expressed the events of Erica so much better than i ever could,such a great writer and sweet old soul..sigh as i sit here reminiscing of his great influence over my life.

The effects of Erica would have been a easier pill to swallow if you were still around to talk it over with,you were one to remain calm and optimistic even in the face of danger.You were known for being funny,down to earth,someone who was always willing to listen and you were very understanding.

Now with you gone,it just makes it a little more difficult to breathe, but i know with time I will catch my breath,and live and enjoy every moment,i know  you would cheer me on to smile and not cry. It is a hard thing to accept,but God gives and he takes away,and i know it is not goodbye but it is farewell for just a little while.

I see why you encouraged me to write,because you knew i would carry on the legacy and write,hoping one day to be as great as you. I’m proud to have been related to such a great talent and beautiful soul.Rest in perfect peace my beloved brother David Guiste.

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Laurna Guiste

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Importance of Self Love

Self love is important in setting the stage for all chapters of your life, such as your relationships, friendships, career and personal growth. The level in which you love yourself will determine how you allow others to treat you and how you treat yourself. It is important to truly love yourself in order for you to be able to love others and most importantly to love God.

Loving yourself means you have accepted yourself just the way God made you, whether short,tall,light skin or dark skin you have accepted your outer beauty as well as your inner beauty. You have recognized your strengths and weaknesses and you have capitalized on your strengths and are working on your weaknesses.

For example you’re good at singing; you don’t join the dance group if  you know you’re not good at dancing, you sharpen your singing skills, and you take singing classes, you learn an instrument you capitalize on it, and yes you can take dance classes if you love dancing but perfecting that which you are already good at will make you  better if not the greatest in your field, and that’s why loving your self is the first step in becoming your greatest self, as you love yourself you work on bettering yourself.

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Laurna Guiste

The Greater You movement,a movement aimed at inspiring both women and men alike, to accept and love themselves. Also, encouraging persons to tap into their greatness and becoming who God has called them to be.

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A champion’s cry

I wanted to be used by God but i didn’t realize how much i was still caged by my own selfish desires. Christ i said was my everything i quoted the Scriptures and encouraged others to lay their burdens at God’s feet and let God carry their baggage’s ,it was as though i spoke to everyone but myself as i took on my own to wrestle these demons. i couldn’t win this battle,i felt prey over and over and over again and overtime i thought the fight was won,my opponents would hit me with a secret blow. I honestly feel defeated in this race,as many of my brethren expected me to have been closer to the finish line or at least won a gold medal by now i mean i had the talks of a champion but where were my trophies to show for it.

Truth is i had been in this race long enough to fake it, i learnt the songs,testimonies,bible verses  long enough to look like i was making it,but honestly i was struggling,i was fluctuating in my walk and I had no one to blame but myself.I must admit i have had some victories,won some fights,given my opponents some serious punches and marks but i forgot that this enemy wasn’t defeated my just me, i had God fighting for me and i forgot that this enemy never gives up,so the times he got me were the times i let my guard down,i compromised and i didn’t stay beneath God’s protection.

I have failed miserably, and i realize i cant continue like this as many people are looking up to me to win this battle, i cant quit because i owe myself this championship,i wont let the enemy win because God has been to good to me to let that happen.Christ didn’t save me to barely make it to heaven,he saved me because He loves me and has a purpose for me.so i stand amidst my pain and struggles,i stand amidst my trials and mistakes and i look to God to heal my wounds and make me whole.

I am going to make it, i am going to take the necessary steps,discipline,training to get in this match and fight,it is not going to be easy,it is going to be painful,but no pain no gain. So help me God I am going to FIGHT this good fight of faith with God as my coach and number one fan.

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Laurna Guiste

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Salvation is what? FREE

Salvation is what? FREE

Way to salvation

It is not God’s will that any man should but all should come into repentance.

Romans 10:9 & 10 if you confess with your mouth (confession) the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart ( belief) that God raised Him from the dead you will be saved.

Mark 16:16 you must believe and be baptized to be saved. Acts 16: 30 & 31

Salvation comes by God’s grace Titus 2:11-12

The way to God / salvation is narrow (Matthew 7:13-14)

We can be saved no other way Acts 4:12

Call on the name of the Lord and you shall be saved Acts 2:21

It’s God’s will that all men repent 2nd Peter 3:9

Who will inherit God’s kingdom 1st Corinthians 6:9-10

All things are possible with God Luke 18:27

Christ died for us sinners Romans 5:7& 8

Christ came to seek those that were lost Luke 19:10

Christ will appear unto those who look for Him Hebrews 9:28

Romans 5: 10 we shall be saved by Christ life.

I have accepted Jesus as my Lord and personal Savior for more than ten years now and I will be honest it hasn’t been easy but it is definitely been worth it. God is faithful and has kept me through every hardship and trial I have faced. I came from a Christ believing home and it was easy for me to step into the Christian faith since I was known as a goodie-goodie two shoe but I was a sinner nonetheless and I still failed God after I accepted Him into my life, I messed up deeply at times but would always feel guilty and beg for God’s forgiveness, and He is a faithful God who will forgive you, so He forgives me.

My whole life is based on God’s mercy, love and provision, when I was younger I almost died twice, I was almost electrocuted and secondly I rolled down a valley that was supposed to kill me, but see God protected  me for His purpose. I had this shy, quiet and timid personality, I never stood up for my right and  I allowed people to walk all over me. I suffered with low self esteem for years, was sexually molested as a kid, so I always kept to myself, too afraid to share my thoughts on anything. Because of my quiet and shy personality people bullied me and called me stupid long enough I started to believe them. I struggled for the first three months of my high school years trying to fit in and find myself, I didn’t do what the other girls did, my dad was super strict and didn’t allow me to go anywhere, so I had no real friends. During those hard years I surrendered my life to Jesus and I slowly I started to make some friends and I blossomed into an attractive young woman so guys became attracted to me but because of my strict upbringing I never dated while in high school. My grades still suffered though since I still experienced f low self esteem and didn’t have the motivation to do anything I was too afraid to try anything.

My grades were miserable and they didn’t change till my brother gave me a good old whooping to straighten me out and had a long talk with me about the importance of an education. I believe the subject I always passed was English, since I always loved writing and creating characters and situations I guess it was my escape from the cruel world I lived in. My grades significantly improved and I got deeper into my relationship with God, I became an active member of my church youth group where I got exposed to speaking in front a crowd the youth leader had no idea how much he helped me conquer my fears. My participation in speaking in front a crowd increased as I began ministering and I got comfortable speaking into the lives of people. I read the word more and through many pastors and the word I began to see how much God loves me and began to accept myself gradually. I became bolder and was encouraged to be my best, because God loved me just how I am, flaws and all.

As my college years went by I did pull away from God as I wanted to experiment and I did fail miserably at that because God wouldn’t allow me to do anything sinful without me feeling guilty about it, I found myself back to God and I took a back seat because I didn’t feel good enough to be used in ministry for God, I became stagnant for years and lacked motivation to be all God called me to be. During that time I went from relationship to relationship trying to feel the void that was in my heart, I wanted to feel loved so bad that I fell for anything that looked like it. I lacked self worth and value and God taught me some hard lessons so I could come back to him. My experiences inspired my first book called The Greater You, people have no idea all what I have been through all the hurts, mistakes, heart breaks, disappointments but I still held unto God and He has kept me in the midst of it all.

During all that I have been through God has always provided, protected, forgiven and helped me, He doesn’t look at you the way man does, He sees our hearts and if we desire to please Him He will show up and help us because He truly loves us. That is not all my story I maybe will write a book about it one day, but I do want to encourage you to surrender your life to Jesus and give Him a chance to love you pass your pain and regrets.

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Laurna Guiste

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All or nothing

All or nothing

I sat near the window pane, when the much needed breeze kissed across my face and I closed my eyes as my heart ached. I wished he had joined me for lunch but he was long gone now with nothing but a memory. I read and re-read the text messages he sent me a few hours ago stating all the reasons why we shouldn’t be together, and I digested every word and syllable causing my muscles to feel sore and my spirit heavy. In the heat of the moment I replied with such anger and hurt telling him that I didn’t want him either and how we were better off with other lovers. I knew I was piercing my own heart but what else could I say, I had always played victim in my past relationships begging for a man to stay with me feeling far  worst when he still left, so this time I decided I would be strong or at least pretend to be. God knew I felt my weakest, blaming myself for things not working out; after all this was my fourth lover.

Darnel was his name, tall, dark and handsome with a six pack that made me shiver whenever I thought about it. A few days ago we made love and I guess he already knew it was our last time because he made me climax all over the bedroom walls, floor and bathroom. He was a deacon at his church, the youngest actually 26 years old, was the most charming and  had women at the church always trying to get with him but none were successful. He prided himself on being a “godly, strong man” who exercised self control but all that talk were babbles when it came to me. My name is Charlene Jones, Chief Executive Manager at Excites Boutique, a 5’7, fair skinned beauty who’s an active member and PRO of the church’s Women Ministry. I knew our secret lifestyles were not pleasing to God but publicly we were the ideal christains, prayed, fasted danced, shout about and even spoke in tongues. We were both saved and wanted to honestly live a holy and pleasing life before God but like everyone else we had our weaknesses.

Darnel and I were acquaintances for a long time and he never showed no interest in me since I always went from relationship to relationship, he was my type but I always thought he was way too serious and always assumed he had a girlfriend.  It happened at one of our Sunday evening services that  he volunteered to drive me home since my car battery died, it was an interesting drive  filled with compliments and he finally conveyed his interest in me. I was flattered but my guard was still up from my past relationship so I refused to give him my number. He didn’t give up, every Sunday after service he met up with me to talk about the word and other spiritual topics, I was impressed and slowly my guard started coming down, so I gave him my number one afternoon. He acted like the happiest guy alive and he called me every night to talk about how my day was, my goals dreams and what my ideas and thoughts of marriage were. We got to know each other so deeply, he made it easy to open up and tell him deep details about myself, and the more we spoke about our expectations in marriage the more I pictured him as my husband. We were close for about three months and we had never gone out on a date, every time I brought it up he told me he was busy but we spoke every night so our connection still grew. When the fifth month came I started to feel we should make it official since I felt like I was his girlfriend, we spoke about everything referred to each other as “us” and “we” and we spoke of our future together and we always hung out after church but no one saw us as a couple just good friends but it felt like so much more to me.  So after bugging him so much about it he decided that we should go on a weekend camping trip together, knowing that I adore the outdoors and always wanted to go on a road trip I literally jumped on him at the idea. I packed my bag and we left the Saturday afternoon to the next town it was a 9 hour drive filled with laughter, fun, excitement, snacks and we had our first kiss.

We stopped at a viewing point facing the ocean and the sun was setting leaning against the car’s boot and he just unexpectingly captured my half open lips. It was such a magical moment since I liked him so much I felt tingly all over and I kissed him back with much passion and before long we were devouring each other’s mouth. We kissed every time after that, he said he liked my lips and my lips liked his and they were always joining. That night we slept at a cheap hotel on separate beds and I knew he wanted to make love but at that time I was terrified of getting pregnant and God wouldn’t be pleased I said, at that moment I was satisfied with just a deep kiss. He agreed to the same thing and so we didn’t have sex, the rest of the trip went by so fast. We were soon back home and before we said our good byes he kissed me and told me he loved me I smiled and told him I loved him too. It was six months and our talks over the phone continued this time it was filled with dirty talks,sexting,nude pictures  and ended with I love you’s, I felt  so in love and since we still spoke about one day getting married I let all my guard down and started masturbating while talking to him. Our talks about the word, praying and fasting ceased and more and more we lusted after each other. There were moments I would try to tell him we were doing something wrong but he told me if I wanted to be his girlfriend I would give all myself to him. I didn’t want to lose his love so I gave in.

He convinced me for hanging out at his home one afternoon, I would bring pop corn and we would watch Netflix, perfect time to cuddle I thought since we hadn’t hang since the trip. So I went over and we sat on the couch and watched about two movies when we started making out, everything in me wanted  to make love since we spoke about it every night ,I had seen pictures of his naked body and wanted to see it in person. He didn’t hesitate to strip me naked and did everything to me he spoke of over the phone, we were in love and nothing didn’t stop us from pleasuring each other, it was amazing. Afterwards we cuddled and it felt great, I didn’t feel guilty because he loved me and I was his girlfriend God would understand.

He made our relationship official the next day and every girl at church was shocked and many were envious, they wondered how I managed to get Darnel to commit since he was known for being picky I just shrugged and told them God had His way.

For the next couple of months I felt like wonder woman, dating the hottest guy at church, being the number one Boutique in the area and rumors were spreading that Darnel was planning to propose. We had been together for almost a year and I couldn’t picture being with anyone else.  We spoke of having children and Darnel often teased me of how I’d look once pregnant. Life was amazing; God had been good to me, though Darnel and I continued to have sex regularly, and many of the church’s members wanted to know if we did but we reminded them it weren’t their business.

We planned to move in together but the pastor was against it, stating he didn’t want any of his deacons shacking up, Darnel was upset but he didn’t want to go up against the pastor, so he started sneaking into my apartment on weekends. Those were wonderful moments but our relationship stated to feel grimy and based on nothing substantial. Moreover the people at the church started to observe changes in our behavior, and our ministries started to suffer because of our double life style.  I had myself convinced  that Darnel’s and I  love could pull through anything and as soon as we got married we would move out of that small town and pursue ministry in a better church. A few weeks went by and I didn’t hear from Darnel as much, he became super busy and I got convinced that he was seeing someone else, he told me he wasn’t but I just couldn’t make sense of his distance. Church folks started accusing us of fornicating and went as far as saying I was pregnant and Darnel didn’t want the child. I heard snickers and whispers whenever we spoke at the podium, no one seemed interested in what we had to say, some called us hypocrites and one sister told me to live the women group and being so upset that day I did and I never went back to that church.

Darnel came over one night and met me crying curled up in bed, he asked me what was wrong and I told him what happened, in the end he told me he had been feeling low and how he felt like God had given up on him, he said we should fix our lives, but I told him I loved him and we were not doing anything wrong, one thing led to another and we made love. The next morning when I rose he was gone; I tried calling and texting him but no answer. I was confused more than ever and I felt like I was going crazy if Darnel had left me, days went by and this morning he sent me the lengthy text.

I began to feel lower than dirt when I realized that I had given up my body to a man who didn’t love me but  used me to satisfy his lust, I felt betrayed, manipulated and to make it worst I felt like I deserved it, I felt like God was punishing me for disobeying His word. I was heartbroken, alone and depressed how was I to come out of this position when I had no one to turn to.

Written by

Laurna Guiste

This story or one similar is one of many women, women who have suffered hurt due to sleeping with a man who didn’t love them, wasn’t married or committed to them. It is a painful tale but a mistake made too often without thinking of the consequences. I’m not going to state details about how to love any man except how to love one man so deeply that we don’t fall into similar traps and that man is Jesus. Charlene could have saved herself the heart ache and depression if she had firstly honored God in her relationship and her body. Our bodies are the temple of the Holy Ghost and we are bought with a price, therefore we should glorify God in our bodies and in our spirit which are God’s, failure to do so will have consequences. However no man is perfect and we do err, God is faithful and just to forgive our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. When we feel alone and there is no one to turn to, God is indeed there and waiting to listen to our heart content and to heal us from our hurts. God loves us even when we don’t love or want Him.

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Embrace your Greatness

Whatever the enemy meant for evil God do turn it around for good.

Jane walked into her bosses office to carry out some assigned task and within a few minutes her boss Mark started playing music very loudly even dancing  to it, Jane as amused as she was couldn’t resist to state that the music playing was the one needed in the store, immediately Jane”s boss snapped at her,” you have been saying that for so long,why don’t you take the initiative and add the music on the disk so that it can be played”

Jane stared back in shock, Mark continued” I want to put the music on the disk but i do not know how,but that’s the difference between us,I am not a follower, you will be a follower but I am going to learn to put the music on there!”

” I am not a follower” Jane grumbled turning away from her bosses spiteful gaze,Mark continued, “I am sure you know how its done, you are smart enough,went to College, so you must research how it is done and not just stand by!”

Jane felt she could slap the smirk off his face, she felt so disrespected yet she felt speechless as if the words were some what true,she left his office rather dejected as Mark sat at his desk laughing.

She saw him as an evil agent sent by the enemy to put her down, Jane was on a road to self growth and motivation, convincing her self that she was strong,better than she was months ago and on her way to being a leader. She prayed in her heart binding all his negativity against her, declaring that she was great, a leader not a follower and she was going to make it in spite of how she presently felt. The words Mark said was stuck on replay in her mind, was that how she was being seen? She wanted so desperately to change,his words began to add fuel to her hunger to change,improve and prove him wrong.

Minutes after she still sat struggling with a disturbed state of thought, and then she saw an email from Mark, he stated that he wanted the others to show her how the music is uploaded to the disk, and he encouraged her to learn new things as knowledge is power.He further stated that he wanted her to teach him when shes done.

Jane smiled as she realized that her boss only wanted the best  for  her, he saw her potential and therefore refused to settle for her mediocrity, he knew she could do it, she just had to believe in her self first.

Self motivation is good, we often convince ourselves that we are good enough until we are given the test to prove ourselves, sometimes we let fear cripple our potential, we are afraid of being our great selves so we live below our expectations just to get by,shyly unnoticed. but  i am here to encourage someone including myself that we were not born to be ordinary individuals, we were not created just to exist work a 8 to 5 job  and just make ends meet. If you  were created just to exist God wouldn’t keep sending people to motivate you to try and work harder to become better.

You are great, an extraordinary person with a unique task,chosen to change the world and make a difference. You seek to grow and make positive changes in your life because God is going to use you as a changing tool, you are a natural born leader,stop fighting your greatness,embrace it,become it.

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Laurna Guiste

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Accomplish your dream

 

Accomplish your dream

You got to protect your dream, Remember Joseph and his brothers,

You got to want it like no other,

You got to fight and not be easy to give up!

Even when there is no one around to help, you got God,

He got you,

Strive for the best and you will get the best,

Every day work on that sculpture,

And before you know it you got a piece of art,

Knock off laziness and procrastination,

Go fourth and be great,

You got what it takes!

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Laurna Guiste

 

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Death taken by self

 

Today he left this world, left his grandmother, left his hand marks stained on the pails whom he used to carry for her after she had a hard day.

He left behind a lamented mother, confused father and saddened sibilings, trying to wonder why he did it

Though they knew he was frustrated, unemployed and sort of demented,

He never gave them a real reason why he wasn’t happy

And why he took his own life.

Today I heard the news of a young man ending his life and I got saddened as I remembered his face, I knew him as a guy who was friendly and would always call me. There were rumours of him being mad and under serious stress, still is that enough to drive someone to take their own life? I guess, not everyone is able to cope with life inevitable challenges and tests, many of us don’t have a resort to turn to.

Even as a young woman at times I become frustrated with life and suicide attempts passes as light flickers before my eyes though quickly brushed off, I know I have had them. But I look at my life and I feel at peace with God and myself knowing when no one cares He does, He loves me when I am  unlovable and don’t deserve it, God is what has kept me sane for so long honestly.

No amount of challenge or situation should drive you to a path of self destruction, my advice is love yourself first or no one else will, be pleased and at peace with yourself and make choices that make you happy and consider your love ones, for they should have your back when no one else does, if not form friendships but I urge you never be alone for in the company of counsellors there is safety, two is better than one. Have someone you can confine in and trust and if there really is no one for the moment trust God, he promise to never fail us even when folks do.

Life is precious and is as beautiful as you would want it, rain will come but it’s up to us to hold up that umbrella till the shower dissipates and a rainbow appears.

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Laurna Guiste

 

 

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Vacation 2014 :D

So my two weeks vacation is coming up and i am so excited!! I know it isn’t much but it is well deserved after you have been working like i have. This is my 3rd vacation this time around and I always look forward to having some good fun,although last year i was a little disappointed because i didn’t do half of what i planned,but was still good i started my own page on Facebook and actually joined a non profit community development group,i got to draw and give out ideas on helping the elderly plus the lunch was always delicious yummy! I wonder if they will visit  this year mm.

Anyway,my vacation starts next week Tuesday,the Monday is a public holiday,so you can say it starts Monday. I have dedicated the first week to taking care of some procrastinated business,need to get some stuff out of the way,stuff like doctors appointment etc clear some room clutter etc.

The fun in the sun hopefully starts the Saturday I am thinking picnics,bike rides etc hey i don’t wanna reveal much,my fingers are crossed the second week is dedicated to beaches,some long awaited adventures,discoveries,rivers,hikes and lots of good food.

Promise to write all about it during or after,and hoping to take lots of photographs so we can reminisce together.So wish me care,fun and a great vacation.Peace.

 

Regards

Laurna Guiste