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Thoughts of a blogger on a overcast Sunday afternoon..

It’s a lazy Sunday and it has been hot all week,today however it’s a bit overcast and I’m just laying in bed. The local radio station plays in the back ground,as my dad snores in the hammock,waving off mosquitoes. The Caribbean weather is so unpredictable and moody,it’s like mother nature is on her period.Hot and sunny one second scattered showers the next.

I’m laying here thinking if what bikini I’ll get for the Summer and the beaches and rivers I’d like to visit. Have you ever made plans and when the time comes for them to be executed you change your mind. Why do we humans do that tho,I love making plans,I’m always writing goals down.

I would like to believe I execute mostly all of them,but what about those I don’t. What about those big, life changing goals,the ones that would financially advance us why do we sometimes put them off?

I guess feelings change,we lose people who could have helped us,we don’t have the money and so many reasons why we didn’t become that astronaut.

I bet in years to come we’re gonna wish we did take that trip to the moon or just that trip around the corner to meet that new neighbor.

I challenge us,me included to stop putting things off out of fear,out of fear of leaving our comfort zones,let’s try at least to burst through the box of comfort and live a lil more.

Hope you’re enjoying your weekend #caribbean blogger#girlswhoblog

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Laurna Guiste

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Mom,kudos to you,I love you and I always will.(Rip)

So,I’m here sitting at church with all these accolades being given to moms and I can’t help but miss my mom. It’s been six years since my mom’s passing and it feels like yesterday. I lost my mom to cancer and just thinking about those last days,moments in the hospital is heart wrenching.

I’d never been to a hospital,or sat at the wards before,and just sitting by her bed side holding her frail hands with all the tubes in them,you just feel so helpless. The worst part about seeing someone you love sick is the feeling that you can’t do anything to ease their pain. Those were one of the worst moments of my life and the only way I could deal was numb my feelings. That was way worst since I spent lots of time crying out the tears I’d kept back for so long. Every memory with her was so precious,I’m the last so you know I was spoilt and she was my go to person.

My mom and I would stay up late watching my favorite movies and she made jokes just to make me laugh,she said she loved my laugh and she also loved movies. Her favorite singers were Elvis Presley and Jim Reeves,her actors were Shawn Cornrey and Charles Brunson I believe she had an eye for classical studs lol. My mom had the kindest heart,always giving,sharing never encouraged gossip. I believe I’m like her in many ways,a devoted and loving wife and mother.

My mom was my human sized teddy bear,was always there to give me a hug and kiss when I needed it and when I needed to hear those three words free from lies and lust but full of truth,warmth,unconditional she was that person. No love can compare to that of a mother’s, none can replace it.

I end encouraging you to love your mother,your queen because she loves you in her own way and form. Appreciate her,hug and tell her how much you love her she needs to know it and feel it.

So If I’m not too late,Happy Mother’s day to all you mother’s in bloggerland.

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Laurna Guiste

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Smile more,worry less…

Never leave with regrets since we got one life to live,and we just don’t know when it will be our last day on this earth. The longer I dwell on this planet the more I realize we experience loss,especially loss of a love one and that is one of the deepest pain I’ve felt. The worst part is there is no remedy for the loss of a love one except the old phrase,time heals all wounds but does it.

No level of detachment can prepare you for the stings of death. You just have to ask God to give you the strength and peace to make it through. So until you catch your last breath, celebrate those around you and live with a purpose. Stop worrying,as it solves nothing,stop frowning as tension and stress increases disease.

May we live to follow purpose,mission,destiny and reach out to those who act like they don’t need it. Let’s live with no regrets and love deeply.

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A teary weekend and a dose of mercy.

How was your weekend? I hope it was better than mine,for mine was a mess of tears,wrapped in self pity,but at least it ended well.

My best friend and I had a pretty heated argument and we swore we were gonna throw away years of a good friend ship just because we couldn’t see eye to eye Sunday morning.

It started with me not being able to sleep the night before,lying wide awake,questioning my existence and if I’m doing my fair share of what God called me to do. I believe self examination is very important, seeing where you are and where you should be or can do to get there. So it was a restless night,and the next morning my friend and I exchanged our usual morning greetings and during our usual talk we speak of out rest and dreams which we share. So I mentioned my self examination episode and yes she wanted to encourage me but she used some words that didn’t sit well with me. I’ve noticed that I do rather get angry quickly shameful I know,and it’s something I need to fix. Anyways the argument began with both of us getting defensive and from the looks of it we were both where we didn’t wana be and it hurt. So the talk challenged us and instead of fighting the problem we thought each other.

Long argument short she spent the Sunday night and half of yesterday not speaking to me,and I couldn’t stop crying over what a mess we’d made out of a simple topic. At one point I was convinced I could leave without this friend,this hurt was to painful to forget. The more I dwelt on it,the more I missed her,then she messaged me saying she forgave me and I angrily said I forgave her,but the pain Still lingered and I still wanted to hurt her,hence I hadn’t really forgave her.

It’s so easy to say we forgive someone but God always tests us to see if we did,and if we really got His love in our hearts. My friend hurt me so dearly and I hurt her too,but here she was saying she forgave me,well it took some more crying and lots of prayer for peace,strength and courage to let it go. I had to come at peace with myself, and forgive her for me not even her. I had to fish out the good from the bad,and today we spoke rather pleasantly.

God has taught me these lessons over and over,the lesson of forgiveness and repentance. How hurt He feels when we willfully sin,mess up and come back to Him to wipe our slates clean.

Our sin hurts God deeply,and I believe so much that He cries,cause He loves us so much.

I felt the heart of God amidst my pain and it helped me to realize how unworthy yet how loved we are as Believers.

My encouragement to you today is if you’re hurting please bring that hurt to God and allow Him to heal you,to give you peace and courage to deal. If you’ve fallen run to God,and know His mercy are everlasting and He is forgiving. Lastly know our sin hurts God a lot and He loves us more than we can ever imagine. Be encouraged that He cares and He loves you.

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Laurna Guiste